Brayden Now at 6 months

With all the problems that Brayden has been having lately, he is doing really well. He is now 6 months (7 months on the 26th of February), and he should only be around 5 months. As you know, he has had problems with IVH in the brain, but he has other problems that you don't even know about. He has anemia, asthma, RSV (doctors say that it is like an adult version cold that preemies get due to underdeveloped lungs), chronic lung disease, bronchiolitis, and a lazy eye (forgot the term they told me it was called). I feel like we can never stay out of the emergency room, and it is beginning to take a toll on my college homework. That cannot happen.

Brayden is going to end up seeing someone to do some physical therapy on him to help him with his development because he is a little behind most of the others at his age due to being premature. His neurologist says that he will do fine with that. The only problem that I have with everything is that I blame myself for all the stuff that he is going through being premature because I feel me being upset almost all the time while I was pregnant caused him to be premature. My family and friends tell me that I am wrong and had nothing to do with it, but they would tell me that due to they care about me and don't want me to feel depressed. They think I might be going through PPD (post-partum depression). Maybe they are right, but since I do not have insurance and can't get approved for medicaid, I cannot see anyone about it.

Anyway to get back on topic, Brayden is fine in my viewpoint. He is a loving and energetic baby. He is always happy and smiling constantly. He only gets fussy at night when it's time for him to go to bed. That is normal. He just tries really hard to accomplish new things. I also try to teach him things along the way through his development to see if I could help. He will hopefully overcome everything by the time he is one or two (hoping).

This is Brayden now :) <3